Small Fry!!

Thu, 20 Apr 2006 07:29:11 GMT

your the only one...
your the only one who makes me feel the way that i do
your the only one that makes me wanna listen to sappy songs
your the only one that excites me
your the only one who seems to have a deep passion
your the only one that makes a kiss feel special
your the only one that would make my wish come true
your the only one that could make me babble like an idiot
your the only one that can have me up for hours waiting for any silly little conversation
your the only one who could make me cry
your the only one to make me feel the way that i do and i dont know why...and
your the only one who doesnt seem to see how you make me feel..

wish you felt the same

once in a great while... i update

Wed, 04 May 2005 02:52:52 GMT

Something unusual happend onsunday night. well actually i could have been just as simple as not paying attention at all... its funny how you get taken to places you least expect.

so i got home from my dads house around eight o clock pm on sunday evening, and i get a phone call from my dad five minutes later saying he left his house keys in my car.

so i was back on my way to my dads house, and on the way back home. yes i was on the phone with Philip while on the freeway.

before i could even realize that i was in the wrong lane and merged onto the wrong freeway. ( there was a scary gasoline truck that was switching lanes and scared me to slow down almost to a stop.)

i looked at all the signs on the freeway and i looked up, I WAS IN CALABASSAS. i was right next to charlotte and lorz house. it made me think, well more like reflect on all the memories i have with people, and i dont even see them anymore, BUT yet i still feel a strong connection with everyone i have meet, and made wonderful memories with.

This made me think do you meet peope for a purpose and they leave or fade away, or come in and out for a reason or can you just stay in contact with everyone? i really want to...

i miss many of my friends.

although people grow and more forward or in some direction in life and you in a sense grow apart, or do you?

i donno... confused!

Hey Charlotte, i wanted to say hello! hanging out sounds like fun! we should try it sometime!

PS> THAT GOES WITH ANYONE, YOU LET ME KNOW I WOULD LOVE TO HANG OUT WITH EVERYONE!!!!<

wow i feel like sunshine and flowers although life is too confusing, (insert any word), and etc. but i'm willing to try!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

<3

Mon, 31 Jan 2005 00:41:19 GMT

so i feel like i have just picked a million four leaf clovers and that i have been sooo lucky to find all these beautiful wonderful people that represent every clover i have found. all of you just make my days! this last friday i could not have asked for anything more or less..thank you

p.s. the pictures will remind me everyday of how wonderful you all are

love, yours truly...

Thu, 27 Jan 2005 16:25:46 GMT

YES YES GO ON NOW .. YOU CAN DO IT!

[01] Reply with your name and I will write something about you
[02] I will then tell what song[s] remind me of you.
[03] Next, I will tell you who you remind me of, celebrity/animated or otherwise.
[04] Last, I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
[05] Put this in your journal

Thu, 27 Jan 2005 16:23:52 GMT

my cat is WAY fluffy!
what can your cat do?

HOT DAMN

randomness

Fri, 10 Dec 2004 05:43:16 GMT

hmmm... since everyone has moved to my space i just thought id let everyone who still reads this that i have a date on friday to see my beautiful...or spelendiferous !!! (yes a new word i read today) geourgous ballerina DANCE!!!! YAY then Julias and Vivians bday party maybe we can play twister.. thats such an awsome game! Saturday i have a date with Sasha to go to sacred grounds .. and heather and alisa too! i have to find time for my homework and christmas or well holiday shopping. it should be fun! well i hope that everyone with life going at them so fast that it makes them spin.. confused and makes them sad i hope it gets better. just REMEMBER just keep swiming , just keep swiming...YAY GO FINDING NEMO!!!!!!!!!!.. so now im at Dan's house with kealyn, and their watching northshore... i wonder if that show is even good. hmmm... remember that i <3 you!!! yes yes you ... you yes you not the person behind you but you .. okay yes and the person behind you. have a good night everyone... i know that for me everything will get better eventually...(cross fingers).. dan just said i was special.. unique...he says im the only brunette that doesnt go for blonde guys... hmmm im off to ponder...maybe not

Thu, 04 Nov 2004 06:56:39 GMT

sad.. sad more than ever.. best friends its something i have always thought about .... i have had a feeling about it all lately .. and i know half is my fault because it would be ignorant for me to say that it is not my fault at all ... and well let me clear up that by me using the word fault i dont mean it in that way because it is no ones fault... i shall switch to a different word.. or try to. well the thing is i have tried hard in keeping my friendships and always knowing that both of us care deeply about each other .. and as we watch each other make friends and we watch others come and go we still got each other .. although .. for some reason i feel as thought that might be changing ... and it could be my lack of sleep and everything else piled on top of it. but i guess i miss being the one that is always there for you through everything and now i feel as though i have taken a back seat to all of this and well i well as though something of this importance to me shouldnt fade like this. BUT IT IS....i tired of just hearing about things and not having much in common anymore... that one thing that i knew was always solid in my life is suddenly not so solid anymore.. is it because of ignorance... is it because thats how life is and well all grow up sometime... or is it because im just giving up.. and as pathetic this all sounds and as much i sound like someone i dont want to be like i feel like them and it disappoints me to even think that i can be like them and i know this is all a big one sentence feeling it just happens.. and well and this has come to make me realize i havent been the BEST FRIEND either ... ill work on it ,.. although my motivation is shot and i just want to sleep.... i just hope that one day i can be the one to make you feel better like once before... but then again i should just stop living in the past ... who am i kidding.

Mon, 25 Oct 2004 22:21:42 GMT

the one thats been there from the start...
the one that i could never touch...
the one that would walk me home...
the one that gave a kiss on the corner...
the one that i let go...
the one that was my dancing buddy...
the one that i fell in love with...
the one thats too busy...
the one thats not suppost to...
the one that i just met....

i still think about some
and some i wish well
and others thank you

Mon, 25 Oct 2004 21:59:49 GMT

boogers

yes yes please do it !

Sun, 24 Oct 2004 17:42:13 GMT

Ask me 6 questions. any six, no matter how personal, private, or random, i have to answer them honestly....then in return, you have to post this message in your own journal. Please do this!

me????

Thu, 14 Oct 2004 00:08:17 GMT

sometimes i just wonder why this why that... that is about all i can do. i wonder why people fade in and out of your life. Why is it that you meet people and you can lose contact with them or grow apart even though you had or have such a strong bond with them. Does it all happen for a reason. Is it something that you do yourself without even knowing it. I do things that people ask me to and even volunteer so i can be involved and yes it makes for some Great memories but when im in front of my computer i couldnt feel anyone alone... my fears of turning into a close friend i once had is a scary though because i have seen the outcome of it all. it worries me and i wish better for them because i feel that deep down inside they are not happy. Yes i like to see people happy, it makes me happy. i feel the way i think isnt me it has been converted from me to someone that i was close with. i want to be me.... and well me wanting reassurance just about every minute isnt going to happen so i have to think of another way. although many people that i have been close with are slowly fading away.. i want to save it ... but i just feel like i have a 300 pound man sitting on me so i cant.. what have i become.........................................

Thu, 19 Aug 2004 10:14:06 GMT

la la la la la POLAND la la la im going to the beach biatches!!

Thu, 19 Aug 2004 03:41:14 GMT

lalalala POLAND lalalalalala

Thu, 05 Aug 2004 07:40:57 GMT

hahaha your my perfect date Beth!

Sun, 25 Jul 2004 07:11:12 GMT

things that describe my friends ... see if you can guess which one is you:

dying squirrels
pinapples
lemondade
chicken
dictionary
bowling alley
left foot purple
walking
nemo
glasses
mocha
incubus
smudge
curl
heavenly
understanding
hugable
loving
pudge face
jerk face
mysterious
intriguing
....hmm well thats about all for now...and feel free to guess and comment

damn i remember more ...
sweet
shy
funny
goldfish
copycat
ice cream
penguins
MONKEY BITE

Thu, 22 Jul 2004 14:31:45 GMT

i cant believe YOU still dont see it ....

i want to say soo much more but i dont want you to get that satisfaction

rambling

Sat, 17 Jul 2004 18:22:53 GMT

hmm i feel in writing about feeling weeeee im lame whatever, read it if you want and say what you will and then smile at me and call me a friend i suppose i wont think much of it because i wont really know. i dont know why i make things hard.. i guess you cant go back once youve started down a certain path the only thing you can do is fix it, and live with it! this all sucks yes yes yes but its just a matter of how you deal with it. if you do things (whatever they may be) that make you happy then keep doing them.please do. i just feel that for my mistakes and screw up i play for them dearly, for a long time. maybe i just harp on them, hell maybe its just me. it all happens for a reason, and it will make sense later. dont get me wrong i dont think i have a bad life, its great i dont think i could be greatful enough, but there are certain things at do effect me. you know what if your still reading i suggest that you dont read on its just me rambling on some more. ... i just dont get why things make me second guess myself? hmmm well i have to get going. i leave you with this: everything happens for a reason , take it or leave it

peace!

Sat, 10 Jul 2004 00:27:31 GMT

i dont get you, you say one and do another...i am apathtic to what you say because i truly cared no matter what you did i still cared no matter what anyone said i still cared. even if i didnt agree with it and i was against it or if it hurt me i still cared. and i know im not perfect either. but this randomness isnt working either ... i thought it might be different but i guess its not! you say things that you wont do and if only......

Thu, 08 Jul 2004 03:21:35 GMT

hey, this is alisa, at the "the" sexy magda's house. and at the moment she is my hairstylist. she has just lopped off all my hair. all gone. magda says "i am cutting your hair mwhaha mwaha" and we love summer school. it's best thing since...since well not sliced bread because that's just stupid. we'll we're off to wreek havoc and cause 10 car pile up's with our sexiness
(and plan to get away with it too).

I LOVE the MAGDA

"oh no Magdalena Idzikowski!"

happy birthday from the other night.....

Wed, 07 Jul 2004 23:59:23 GMT

on a side note:(when people say one thing and do another .. were all guilty of it .. but it hurts when YOU do it ....................yet i still care ..well fuck)

entry: (bellow)

ive been work but i had the best night ever last night <3 SMUDGE

*#**

Sun, 27 Jun 2004 03:24:18 GMT

another waste of breathe , Again it goes unnoticed ... the tv steals the show

Sun, 20 Jun 2004 17:16:09 GMT

time for an update i believe. last night was the most awsomest night. I got ready and ricky picked me up at 5:30 and we went over to the studio were axis records there stuff. They werent there, so ricky and i went to mc donalds and i watched him try to eat. haha it was funny because he just got his lip pirced or well something like it. Then we went back and there they were! we hung out for a while , while they packed up there drums, bass, guitar, etc. Then Dwight came ... man his voice is amazing!!! after getting everything done we drove to st. Lawerance where the show was being held. the rest of the night saw a bunch of bands .. like 7 or so . oh boy and the people they were wonderful too. i didnt expect to see them all there, but sure enough it was the most amazing reunion, even though it hasnt been THAT long!!! to see, ricky, alex, jon, tina, bobby, bezzer, NICK!, alex, ADAM, ashley, rolland, amber, LORI!!! im sure theres more ! wow THANK YOU ricky for taking me !!! the CURL! BUT sasha couldnt make it that made me really sad i tried calling twice, maybe we can hang out another time. after all that a bunch of us went to subway it was goodtimes. then home to sleep!

at the end of the night i though the world is wonderful but am i just not good enough..am i just too nice, i couldnt get mad. i was still thinking of someone who makes me chuckle when he says smudge. and then i thought maybe i shouldnt think so much.

Peace<3

Wed, 02 Jun 2004 23:27:47 GMT

[im worried]

tired like a mother!

Tue, 01 Jun 2004 05:21:08 GMT

sometimes i find it hard to believe and think why people are nice and why they are nice to me, yes there is the universal but your so nice, but what if one day the i or anyone else happens to be stressed and isnt that nice person does that make them a bad person. or is it a situation they can learn from. the point is cut some people some slack !! anywho bill kill was an interesting movie bekah i <3 you sooo much i will go see shrek II soon .. ..... which one would you pick a palm tree or a snowfake and why?

ps. WOOT WOOT PROCRASTINATION is keeping me up all night !

Thu, 27 May 2004 06:08:28 GMT

coming to a realization that situations and ways of thinking of myself are very little when placed next to the issues of the world and others, but at the same time a group is formed one person at a time, so ask you this, if you look at a big picture how can you not slove it but one small part at a time ? it all seems selfish ...i think there is a way but ... that is all

peace!

i gave blood today ! hehe
i went to the dentist
i took a nap!